a storm

Hello everyone! So maybe you've noticed I am suddenly more active. (If posting two days in a row counts as active, that is.)
Well, I have started to feel like writing again so what's to stop me but google docs glitching (because for some reason I like writing on google docs now)?

I'll try to update with my writing every once in a while. Here is my attempt at prose poetry. Happy writing!











a storm ripped across my chest and i grabbed at it. “are you here again?” i asked, dark-eyed and weary. i felt the storm with its many legs scramble through my stomach. i shifted uncomfortably; i felt it scratch at the walls. i felt its roar.
i sighed. “are you here again?” but it did not reply
it did not reply
i sighed and i coughed but it still did not reply
it stayed silent, dormant, ready to strike probably and i sat waiting, tensing, in apprehension, my heart beating, palpitating, dare i say trembling and then it

and then it


nothing happened and i waited and i waited and i scratched at my chest but there was no reply and i tensed and i thought and i waited but still there was no reply so i took a deep breath and i held it all in and then i looked inside and it was empty so empty it was gone, everything was gone
the storm had taken everything and i looked inside the abyss of nothing, not even ribs, not even organs, not even my heart and i
i had nothing left to say because
the storm had already left so

so i had nothing left to do so i
i filled the hole with my tears.

writing! a poem!

Hello there, fellow humans. I hope you all are good on this day. Whatever good means.

It's a dusty Tuesday morning, awkwardly early and dark, the time when nothing's awake but the few who work and the few whose hearts stay restless through the night. It's four o'clock.
So why am I awake?

That's beside the point.

Four o'clock is the best time to be alive, when the sliver between reality and sub-reality meet at a junction in which I can reside and write poetry.

Have I told you I've recently fallen in love with avant-garde style writing?

Well I have.

Here is a link to one of my poems (it can only be viewed on a separate page and you'll see why).

poem 1: once



I am continuing to write and survive, although these days my will for writing has decreased. It's not to say I don't like writing any more--I still love writing as much as I did last year, or the year before that--but I've just been in a very tired(?) state for quite a while so I guess that has influenced my will to do anything. This may actually be the first in-tact writing piece I've written in a few months...

But nevertheless!
I am alive!
And well!

And writing!
Which is exciting. I'm growing more and more fond of poetry now. Its poignant charm has really gotten to me.

I'm hoping to update with more writing soon!
If I write, that is.
Hopefully!

Wishing you all the best!
Happy writing.

train poetry

Hello! Yesterday was the last day of the summer program that I went to. It was an amazing experience, meeting so many amazing writers and getting advice from them in workshop. It has definitely helped me improve in expressing myself more efficiently.
But enough with boring compliments to summer programs. Here are a few poems that I wrote in the train ride back home on the last day (mind you I was feeling very sad because I left a bunch of friends). (I wrote eighteen poems on the train ride.)




depart

acquaintances?
friends?
i-knew-them-once?
stranger?
it doesn't matter because we talked and we laughed and we listened to music
and then we left, dispersing to our homes like speckles of an exploding firework
each little sparkling freckle disappearing into wherever--i was never sure
i hope you each have a good life
maybe you don't care
i do, though
is that weird?



it's true

why do we have a different punctuation marks for questions
can we make a punctuation mark that we put at the end of lies
it would make things so much easier
i didn't eat your pie$
i really like this cake$
i love you$





apricots

sometimes i blow a balloon
and it seems so big and colorful
big
and colorful
and i get all happy
so i show it to someone
and they take a picture of it and show it to me
it's a shriveled balloon








To be honest, I am having trouble titling that last one. I put apricots because I felt it fit the piece but looking back on it, I'm not quite sure. I just wanted you to know.